The next couple of months…
I have one more class to pass before I graduate from Guilford College on Thursday. No walking and no throwing tassels up in the air, besides the ones pasted to my nipples - I really am just done after I finish these last two independent studies. I will graduate with a major in photography and acting. What to do? These last couple of days has been a huge whirlwind between work, relationships, and thoughts of the future. The only three things that I could see myself seriously pursuing are photography, film, and acting. I told my family today that I think I might move to California. I asked my Aunt who lives in Los Angeles, ‘How do I move across the country?’ She said, ‘You pack your shit up into a U-Haul and you fucking drive across the country.” The possibility went from unreal to real in 3.5 seconds. When I told my father he really just burst my bubble and brought on the practicality. Well, once I thought about it I realized there really is no practicality. It isn’t totally practical. I will be taking my chances and I probably will be struggling for quite a while. I am all right with that as long as I am doing what I am passionate about. Maybe I should join the Groundlings. I’m really just all about manifesting my good ideas into some form of art, maybe acting and film. However, I also have an eye and talent for photography. I hate to toot my own ass but I honestly believe I would be good at really anything that I try – so how do I know what to do? I could be happy doing anything - well, most things. I’ve never thought to myself ‘I want to be a dentist or a therapist.’ I do, however, have notebooks filled with hilarious ideas that are just going to lie there like a rug until they are developed. I mean that is what I have always liked to do – laugh and make laugh. So, I am thinking seriously about San Francisco. I think it will allow me to develop my creative talent without commercializing and crushing it like L.A. would. It is also, in my opinion, a higher quality of life. Right? Northern California is gorgeous. Oh, what to do, what to do. I guess I do like some things. To name a few, I like animals, science, Pippi Longstockings, skin disorders, diseases, mental handicaps in general, technology, cartoons, decorating things, blazing hip hop, googley eyes, traveling, journalistic photography, imitating, my own brand, Dutch ovens, cooking, self-portraits, Africa, wooden things, Amy Sedaris, reading, the news, people, watching people, love with people, sex with people, etc etc. How can I combine these and previous thoughts into a job? Ideas? I’ve never really posted thoughts onto a blog before so this might be a little open-ended, like a winking horse. I also think I am in a nutty time, so we will see, they will probably not all be so broad. Penny for your thoughts people of the internet.
